caughtafishandcried
5 feet 5-and-a-half inches
SW:127 CW: 118-ish
gw1:123 gw2:119gw3:116 gw4:114 gw5:110
ending at: 105
I need some [th]inspiration please
None of these photos (unless i say so) are mine, dont trip.
And I'm not a healthy person. You might not like what I like. I don't have a plan to eat 1200 a day. Sorry. Sometimes I barely make it to 500
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that isnt bad! and aw what was your 'dream' college :( xxx
Thanks! just gotta get back on track. And it was just a higher end UC. Although, when I think about the big picture and what I want to accomplish in life, it doesn’t seem too life ruining; not getting into a “dream” college and all.
but to add on to this shitty day!
Sometimes i go to the gym and i think about all the things i hate about my body.. and i start with arms, stomach.. and then i think well.. the legs too and my back as well. my love handles… my calves, my chest and then i name off everything on my body sans my toes and my fingers and my wrists.
I have a lot of things..physical and emotional stuff.. to run off tomorrow and I’m excited. i might be 118 but i look… bigger. I have no muscle tone and…and I’m soft everywhere.
How bad is it that I’m looking at a failed future.. and yet all i can think about is what i can control..like my looks and all this crap that.. won’t get me a good degree.
agh fuck, spiraling down right now, I should…stop and shut up.
lol, great
so i didn’t get into my dream college..which was really a lie, cause my ‘dream college’ is harder to get into and i just said this one was my dream college because i actually had a chance of getting in. i guess not.
I thought i was gonna be crushed but I’m not.
i do have a lot of things i have to work on though. And I’m thinking about it…and it sucks, but what is college anyways. I just want to live life, meet people, look good, make memories and i really don’t give a shit about who colleges think i am.
how much weight have you lost sinnce you started going back to the gym? xxx
two! but i gained three since I last updated this blog ): so basically i went from 117 to 120, to 118 and i don’t know, it a bit discouraging, but the gym is fun to me so I’m hopeful!
I’m running off 400-600 calories a day
which means my net total each day is around.. 400?
its going to take a while
:D signed up for the gym again
sat, sun, tues, wed, fri.
sometimes monday.
